Sweat, Blood, Fatigue, Joy
Finally was able to participate in a game of sports. It has been too long since this body could move normally, and it has just been itching for some intensive action ever since. Today, I finally played a match of basketball. Boy did I enjoy it.
Never have I find so much joy jumping, so much pleasure seeing the ball being released from my hand. Never have I smiled as much in a game of sports as I did today, as I enjoyed the moment I had with my mates. No, we are no high class professionals drilled to fulfill our full potential. Just a bunch of rag-tag PES E people, all deemed physically incapable of winning any war by sheer physical superiority. However, in a match where I’m playing with a bunch of people who enjoys the game, it was the first time I felt joy jumping for a rebound.
When I was a high jumper, I lavished the times when I break the records, the days when I can beat my opponents hands down. I lament at the times when I was unable to win a competition, to beat my own record. Each training was about training my body, building up my stamina, improving my technical ability. I was good, but I never took time to take a jump, flip backwards and allow myself to hang there in mid-air. I never enjoyed looking into the setting sun before training ends, lying on that blue mattress. i thought the sports was only about winning. I was wrong.
Today, as I made a rebound against my taller counterparts, as I gripped firmly onto the ball and landed on both feet to turn and make the shot, as I released my first shot towards the net and hear the sound that indicates 2 points (chop!), I thanked God that, after the storms I faced lying in the wards, operation after operation, I could stand in the midst of men to once again play a sport loved by so much. Thank God that I could still run, take knocks, and kick in to full gear. More importantly, I thank God for showing me that, in the competitive field of sports, when we still will think of winning, I have started to enjoy what I am doing. I may be tired, may be losing, may be struggling to reach full fitness. However, this may be the first match when I meant, from the bottom of my heart: “Great game.”
My determination to win a game will never fade. My efforts I put in any game will always be 100%. But now, its so much more, and means so much more when I do it will laughter and smile. Its impossible to do it in big games. I know. I went through that period, and I do not need reminding of how much it ’sucks’ to lose. But it sucks more to find yourself playing something you love, but not enjoying every moment of it.
Di Wei, took you long enough. Why you study and learn so fast, but when I comes to life lessons its always so slow?
Well, doesn’t matter. Thank God I learn them.
