My Cost, your Cost
Finally got over my car accident. It really is just what it is called. An accident. It happens to everyone, one form or another. Sometimes we get wounded, other times we laugh. However, in the end, we bear the responsibilities ourselves. I was quite down after the car accident, knowing it was all my fault, knowing I could have killed all my beloved brothers. Guilt. Sorrow. Shame. When these things happen, we ‘hate’ ourselves for it.
‘I could have been more careful, then all these would not have happened.’
‘Why must I go and do something so stupid?’
‘Why am I so weak, so clumsy?’
‘Why can’t I do anything right?’
Thoughts of hate rain on yourself, blame pile up like Mount Everest, condemning yourself. Olympic record for all time low. But wait. did God not deem hatred a sin?
As the bible describes, hatred is just like murder. Slating yourself is just like killing yourself, and its just what Satan wants of us.
“Yup. That’s right. You are lowly, not good enough. Weakling, you always do these type of things. Sinful failure, what makes you think God loves you? You’ve got no hope.”
316. The numbers of hope. ‘For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.’ Whoever. You, me, him, her. No requirements. No mini script clauses. No judgment of character. WHOEVER. God has told us he loves us, and that he wants to save us.
We will continue to strive for change, to better ourselves. We WILL make mistakes, accidents WILL happen. What will makes you a living testimony of God compared to other people? ‘Deny yourself’. People will definitely be able to see the difference. Acceptance of who you really are, of your mistakes and sins. Just as there is no space for fear i love, when then is there space for hate? We say our God is love, but how do we convince people if we even hate ourselves? If the holiness of his presence has made you come to detest a spec of dirt on you, then don’t. God already knows how dirty you are. When he looked down, he only saw sinners, dirty, rotting. His call to ‘deny yourself’ asks of us to forget about the dirt, cause he has accepted who you are.
We are only human. We strive to be the very best, to show everyone that we are independent, strong, flawless individuals. We feel that we need to so that others can look to you as an example, that they will really feel that God is in your life. Well, God told me to forget about it. ‘pick up your cross ad follow me’. There is no need to live your life tied down. God has freed us from these bondages. There is no need to wear masks or fake yourselves. God wants you to be yourself, as how he has created you. He released the bondages from you the moment he came to save……
One fine day, Satan was dragging some lowly, sinful humans to do his whims and fancy in hell, when Jesus came to him. Jesus stood there, looking at all the people in chains.
The first was lustful, hot-tempered, and killed before.
The second was unclean, guilty of greed and embezzlement.
After careful scrutinizing of every spec of existence Satan was dragging to hell, Jesus spoke.
“How much for all my children?”
“That will cost your life, you know that.”
Without hesitation, Jesus paid the price. Satan was bewildered.
“Why did you do that? They are a bunch of useless, sinful men.”
“Cause Father wants to see hell empty, and heaven full.”
Deny yourself, pick up your cross. Let us follow him. We are no longer bonded.
