My Presents vs the Presents From Above
Today was the baptism of my mom, dad, and grandma. Today, God has answered my prayer. Today, I could not hold back my tears.
A few months back I was still asking God why did my Father reject the gospel, why he does not want to believe in Jesus. Did Jesus not make my Father believe then. Now, I have my answer. So much for not answering my prayer. Just thinking back the full process of how my family became Christians was amazing, how I wished everyday my Father will come back to Christ. Now, my prayers have been answered. Yes, God answered my prayers for my Christmas.
My praise is not enough to return his answer, my body not worthy, my voice not skilled. I cried, not knowing what to say. My God has done so much for me when I can do for him so little. He gives, and gives, and gives. At the start of December, knowing I would spend a lot to return the love I received, I was prepared to spend. I drew $150 from my bank account, deciding to use all the money for gifts. I overshot the budget. Today, after all the spending, my pocket has $200. I did not draw money since the last $150. No wonder we are COVERED by his grace. ‘the lord is my shepherd, I shall not want.’ The person who wrote this plasm was spot-on.
I am sure, all of heaven heard me cry,
As I tell you all the reasons why this life is just too hard.
But day by day, without fail I’m finding everything I need,
In everything you are to me.
Lyrics from ‘Everytime I Breathe’ by Big Daddy Weave. I just want to use a part of the chorus to give thanks and praise my lord:
I realize its true,
That you are, some marvelous God,
and I am so in love with you.
My presents vs God’s present from above. God wins round 1. I”m prepared to lose all the next few rounds 
Game Over
The words I heard from Min when she came out of the jeanes shop. Apparently, they do not sell her size anymore. It is not of stock. AND, they do not know when it will come in. And thus, my plans of buying Min a pair of jeanes has failed miserably. For 23/12/2007. But there is always 24/12/2007.
See, there was a girl that came everyday to visit me while I was rotting in the hospital, a young girl whom had no reason to show love to me, especially since I didn’t know her well yet. But she did. Every trip from RJC should have took around 30min-1 1/2 hours, be it SGH or NUH. 2 weeks. She was sick one of the days she came down. She fainted in school. Tell me people: How do I give up on her present?
My dad has always lived by one motto, and he embedded it in me: Those that love you, you love them back even more (its suppose to be in Chinese). Thus, this Christmas, I just can’t give up so easily. I’ll get smacked TKO by my Father. Plus, its not me. Not when I went through efforts previously to get a Cranberry flavoured limited edition body wash.
In games, when ‘Game Over’ appears, there is always two choices:
1) Quit
2) Try Again
My choice has always been 2.
Wei jiat did say,” Why not buy her the orange sweater? Since you cannot get the jeanes.” Perfectly logical, no flaws, anyway, its a Christmas present. But its not fair, not when she’s one of those I love. I loved my younger brother. Therefore, I spent time to search through physiological books to get him something that will help him, even if its $69.90. Same with his multi-function pedal and guitar strings (100 plus, forgot exact price). I love my older brother, that is why his present (Cannot say now, haven pass to him), can cost mountains of money, but the gain for him outweighs monetary assets. I love Wei Jiat, that I will not settle for something he does not like, especially since I know he loves softball. The Mizuno ball did not come cheap . I love Min Min, and thus I will not settle for something else unless I know it does not exist. My brother taught me this: For those that you love, you must give them the best, not second best. Nothing but the best.
If the jeanes really do not exist, fine. But unless my eyes deceive me or the internet is 100 years outdated, there are shops in Bugis and Marine Parade that sells them. I’m not giving up yet, not when there is still the option to ‘try again’. Not after I promised God that I will give back the same amount of love and happiness each of them deserve. Each and every one of them. Hong Wei. Wei Jiat. Do not think I’ll let you all of so easily…
