My Investigation Outcome
As I returned from morning break, I went over to the assignment desk to receive today’s workload. Usually, there would be a few in the morning, a few more in the afternoon, andd after I’m done with the two batches I will be free to loiter around the office and become the envy of the rest of my colleages, or sit down quietly and self-study so that I would not have to see the scowl from my fellow workaholics (well, its not like I do not want to be like them, just that I do not get the amount of assignments necessary to continue typing at my desktop for consecutive hours). Today, it was totally different. To my bewilderment, what I got from the assignment counter was a smile from the lady mending the counter.
‘Oh, you have no assignments today in the morning.’
NO ASSIGNMENTS!!! That would mean I literally have NOTHING to do for 3 hours (unless I get arrowed for work). Therefore, I decided to take this time to reflect on the last couple of weeks. This was the outcome.
1) I have not scolded any vulgarities at all. This was something I felt proud of, and I am sure the lord is pleased with this, because it is not easy to do so when everyone around you bombards crude words as methodically as eating bread and butter for breakfast.
2) I have however, slept in Sunday sermons once during this month. I am saddened by the fact that even though I tried my best, I still am not able to contain the sleep monster. It made me feel really guilty as the reason for my sleepiness was due to me staying up late to keep my friend company as he came over to have fun. This point was brought up to me by one of my fellow sister in christ, who said to me, ” You should never sacrifice the time you dedicate to god. Sermons do not start when you the pastor starts to talk, it starts when you attend the sermon.” That shot a bulllet through my heart, and I spent the rest of the day contemplating on my erroneous actions. I am saddened not because what she said was correct, but because I really did place my heavenly father second.
3) I have found out that banana milk tea is WAY better than milk tea. Anything that tastes more like banana definitely tastes better than something that tastes less like banana. I have sworn to never purchase milk tea again unless banana milk tea is not available (I never knew the existence of banana milk tea until last week. Amazing).
4) I found out I have started to read the bible a little more consistently (credit to my free time in the office 
). Reading the bible really helps you know a lot more about the lord, and it acts as a guide whenever you go astray. Our lord is the sheperd indeed.
5) My cell group has not come together for quite some time, and I feel that we should nudge the group leader a little to get things going again. However, we must also understand that our group leader needs to study for his A levels as well.
6) I found out that prayer meetings are very useful. The common thinking is that it is just another meeting where we come together and pray. However, I discovered that the power in the meeting lies in the fact that we have a big group of people praying to the lord about something in common. Imagine: You make a prayer about something, and god listens to you and plans according to your prayer; a group of people make the same prayer about something, and god listens to EVERY SINGLE ONE OF US and plans according to our prayer. WOW. Not only that, it gives those people who are weak in prayer to develop themselves in this aspect. Whenever you get stuck while praying, you can always listen to those praying around you, and draw from their prayers on what you can pray about that similar issue. This way, you pray better, more specifically, and to greater effect. I promise to attend prayer meetings from now on.
7) I think I have not been showing concern to my fellow brothers and sisters in christ. It dawned on me when I discovered Xue Wei praying for me to be filled with spirit and strength so I could listen to the sermons (thank you Xue Wei). The people around me are praying for me, but it I seldom prayed for those around me. Therefore, I shall adopt a different stradegy for prayer. Everytime I pray, I must at least pray for somebody that is related to me. At night, I would pray for everybody that needs a prayer, and at least one person whom I personally feel needs a prayer.
I cannot seem to control the words that come out from my mouth. The lord says that one must learn to control his tongue so as to not offend. I think I have not been able to do that, and thus I start building my foundations. Firstly, I shall make sure there is a thought process before anything is said or done. I must make sure my english is properly corrected to sound less offensive. Operation: Mind Filter would commence on 25/04/2007, 1105 hours.
That is the investigation outcome of the month. As I once again wait for lunch break, I shall draw upon the strength of the lord to fulfill these promises to myself. If anyone sees me breaking my promises, please do not hesitate to tell me that I have gone astray. Thank you. Have a pleasant day under the holy presence of the lord!
