Conscious Effort
The office is not a really propitous environment to study. Whether its jaded colleages lying face down on the desk catching their afternoon naps, or insouciant personnels wiping out their PSPs to past their time, they always seem to act as distraction whenever you start stduying. They seem to infuse a sense of lethargy, and their aura seeks to decimate any attempt on your side to movitate yourself to study. Somehow, I manage to onerously force myself to focus, and managed to study some graphing technics before finally conceding defeat.
No matter how much you galvanise defenses against slacking off, I must admit it is quite inutile, and sooner or later you just raise the white flag reluctantly and fall back on your chair to catch a few hours of rest. However, just because it is almost certain you would slack does not mean you do not put in the effort to get something done.
Those with flying A level grades might have the previlege of taking these two years to hibernate, but I have a lot of catching up to do if I were to make ammends to all the time I have wasted. Therefore, consistent effort must be done to keep myself going in the office, as there is almost zilch motivation coming from superiors and peers.
Furthermore, I can always just pray for the strength that I would definitely need to allow me to put in conscious effort so that it can produce results at the end. In an environment infelicitous for studying, one needs to pray to god for strength more than ever. For god has said that his strength is made perfect in weakness.
That being said, I guess its still ok to rest awhile when you really are tired. What is the point of studying when nothing is actually learnt due to fatigue?
